one day i will walk the runway

today i have zero strength

but one day

i will walk the runway

today i am tested and poisoned

but one day 

the poison will be the reason

for my poised walk on the runway

today i have all the fear

but one day

i'll face the runway, strong and fierce

i'll be fearless

one day 

i will walk the runway

but you will not find me

 at the middle of the show

for i will be at the very end

because the very end

is my ultimate aim.

one day,

at the very end

of the runway

some time

 some day.

a blind-folded journey

blind-folded eyes
what-if's everywhere
rocky path
stumbling ground
crawling
crying out
self-pity state
but self-pity is a sin
fear
a downward spiral is the hole
but how deep you go down
depends on
faith
faith
faith on the invisible hand
that is holding you
on your right hand

swing set

I like to be alone on a swing set

I like to lean on 

Be thrown and be flown

But still at my own pace

when i am swung to the front

my chin is all up

with the strength of the quiet wind

i am agile

with the force from the inside

i am up up and i cant help

but smile to the sky

the sky ain't blue today

but that's okay

when i am swung to the back

i am released 

an emotion overwhelms me

and what do i do 

the wind tells me i am scared

i fear and i'm afraid

but to fear is to indulge

in a form of unbelief

 i tell myself that it's okay

i'll have faith 

and i'll swing myself back up up again