along the way

been trying really hard
this responsibility feels so heavy
that sometimes i feel like giving up
and stop trying
you know how frustrated it feels
to try to reach for something
but along the way
you trip
you get back up
only to be at the bottom again
but along the same way
your journey is altered
something new is added
a different perspective it is
a new story is told
to help you understand other things
that seem to be nonsense some time before
now you try to reach out again
with a newly found strength
again, you trip
get back up
trying hard to smile
an almost emptied bottle of patience
a restless heart that can only whisper
voices of hope
in between breaths of hopelessness
how many more times Lord?
nothing
nothing is left in me
i have fought the fight
i'm getting weary
i can only be still
and wait
but wait,
isn't that the lesson
that You are trying to teach me Lord?

O little heart

Be patient, O little heart,

Be not confused with voices of blame,

Be attentive to sweet tones of love.

Be patient, O little heart

Be joyful in mourning what is not to be lively,

Be not scared in what you believe in.

Be patient, O little heart

Be not forgetful for the earthly blessing,

Be extra careful not to regard it as a heavenly treat.

Be patient, O little heart

Be not weary and worried,

Be still and draw in the Higher presence.

Be patient, O little heart

Be slow to complain,

Be quick to forgive.

Be patient, O little heart

Be constant in seeking,

Be hopeful and 

faithful.

Be patient, 

O little heart.