something in me.

so many things i want right now. by things, yes literally things. i love so many things. i'm the go-getter. i'll always try to get what i want. but lately there is something in me. something in me pulls me back when i try to get what i want. something in me keeps saying, 'no, not now'. it feels like something in me is someone else. it is not me. but i know it's part of me. but i'll wait because something in me tells me, there is a thousand fold of things waiting for me, if only i wait. right now, i'll follow something in me because something in me is always right, you see.